Even with just a spark of hope you can start living the life you have been dreaming of and start loving what you're doing despite the depression

Friday March 3rd, 2017 

Thank you for finding your way to my blog I really appreciate it.

Do you or your loved one or a member from your family or just someone that you know from somewhere have depression or does that person or you suffer from having panic attacs just when you least wish one to happen? Has the depression caused any negative ways to your everyday life? 

For me both of those mentioned above have caused many problems in my past. Now days I know myself well enough to know when the depression is about to caught me again but what makes all different is that now I know what to do to make it show and feel less. 

So, if you wish to learn tips and tricks but also to know how changeing the way of life has helped me to cope better with depression, keep on reading and remember to start following the blog because you have found the right place.

My blog is about expertise, knowledge and ofcourse about my personal experience in living with depression, panic attacs and ptsd. But also I am dedicateing my blog to empower women all over the world to see their full potential, gaining better selfesteam and trusting their abilities to cope in stressfull situations. This will sound really cheesy but still so it is true that even with just a spark of hope left, you can start living the life you have always been dreaming of and start loving what you're doing despite the depression. 

I shall share different ways on how you can start to make little and even bigger changes into your life. No matter if it is about how you organize your home, your work place or even your thoughts, I shall tell you what I have done during the past 5 to 6 years. Yes, that is how long I have been doing this self improvement but it doesn't mean it is gonna take that long with you. We are all individuals and we should never compare ourselves to someone else, but the truth is that it is the exact thing we tend to do.

The aim is to reach all those who feel like they are being treated as "freaks" of anykind. To reach all the people who are suffering from depression, ptsd, panic attacs or chronic pain and eating loads of medicine that the Doctors have subscripted for them. This I say just because there are people and even nurses that think I am a drug addict due to the amount of the medicine I am suppose to take daily. If I could I would not take not even one pill ever. But if I stop the meds or stop takeing even a small amount I will loose my ability to walk at all. So should I take the meds? YES. Do I need any critics to badmouth about me in the ER at hospital or in the ward? No way. I am a person with feelings who doesn't need any more negativity into her life. But most of all, I want to be treated with respect as anyone else. Too many times I have been witnessing when nurses are batdmouthing about some patient or about their golleague. Can't help but to think that those nurses are not at the right job at all. Working as a nurse used to be a calling profession but these days it is no longer so. Today just as in many other professions people do the job just for the money and not for the calling they have.

For me this blog is the place where I can express about  my feelings and what I think about the happenings in my life that I see, hear or experience. I can share and let out the emotions I feel tumbling and growing inside and I may share the emotions of loneliness, sadness and hopelesness as well as joy, love and gratefulness as I am trying to survive alone, depressed and with different health problems giving me problems to my spine and joints in my body. 

I will explane  and show you how I see myself with all the inconveniences what those problems create or even make worse, why I feel myself to be super ugly and disgusting at times with all the urine tubes coming out from the stomach area and going to a bag that collects the urine and so on. It is my realityand it doesn't get more raw than that. But wait because it does get more raw. You see I am still single 37yrs old and should find myself the one with whom I could start a family. How or where could I do that and go to find him especially in this condition that I am? Who could ever see me behind the illness that I have I just can't believe I could have any hope of a family of my own. But...there is one special man who actually is seeing me despite all the rest. There for it is possible so don't ever loose your hope of something better.

xoxo SusaMarie